you have lived if...

• You've dated someone for more than a year.
• You've lived with someone.
• You've been engaged.
• You've been married.
• You've been divorced.

• You've made a resume.
• You've had a job that gave you health insurance.
• You've stayed at a job for more than three years.
• You've had a job where you were promoted.
• You've been someone boss.

• You've lived away from your parents.
• You've lived in a dorm.
• You've lived alone.
• You've had roommates.
• You've bought a home.

• You've graduated from high school.
• You've attended college.
• You've graduated from college.
• You've taken classes just for enrichment (no college credit).
• You've attended graduate school.

• You've flown first class.
• You've eaten at a five star restaurant.
• You've mastered another language.
• You've mastered a musical instrument.
• You've learned how to ski, snowboard, or surf.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships. You want to be with someone who's a success. A person with the right job, right family, right clothes... In fights, you speak your mind and don't hold back. You know you're right, and you can get quite angry about it. Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

someday

Someday you’re gonna realize

One day you’ll see this through my eyes

By then I won’t even be there

I’ll be happy somewhere

Even if I cared

I know you don’t really see my worth

You think you’re the last guy on earth

Well I’ve got news for you

I know I’m not that strong

But it won’t take long

Won’t take long

Someday someone’s gonna love me

The way I wanted you to need me

Someday someone’s gonna take your place

One day I’ll forget about you

You'll see, i won't even miss you

Someday someday

Right now I know you can tell

I’m down and I’m not doing well

But one day these tears they will all run dry

I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me

The way, i wanted you to need me

Someday, someone's gonna take your place

One day i'll forget about you

You'll see, i won't even miss you

Someday, i know someone's gonna be there

someday, someone's gonna love me

The way, i wanted you to need me

Someday, someone's gonna take your place

One day i'll forget about you

You'll see, i won't even miss you

someday, someday

pessimism

although i have posted in my previous blog that my issues have been resolved regarding my wednesday blunder.

i cannot hide the fact that i am really going through a "phase" right now. this is different, well a lil realted to that wednesday thing, though this has been present before last wednesday.

(although most people say, ang galing ko magtago. maybe now that i'm 18 and a day old. i should keep it real. well. not 100% but at least a lil. its really hard to wear a mask, right?!)

what i really wish for my birthday is: happiness that cannot be equated to any material thing.
(exact example: MONEY, or a diamond ring.)

funny. most people write blogs so that in a way, indirectly say what they want to say, or share what feelings they have inside. and although how i wish that he could read this. i just know that it is impossible.

but if i were to be asked to ressolve this now.
i know i am not ready.

or maybe i'm just scared.

optimism

i thought last wednesday, will be just like other days, but i was kinda pissed that day.
( i don't want to elaborate on it, because the persons concerned knows about it already. and i think most people do also.)

so i wasn't really plannin' to go to school the next day, and instead planned to go shopping for my last minute birthday errands. but before i went to sleep, i learned taht classes were suspended. yey.
( just to later realize that there were nothing to be happy about)

my mom and i still went to 168. and as we were on our way home, we got first hand experience of the typhoon.
(yeah, we saw billboards crash and tarps and signs flying everywhere.)

i was so happy to get home safely. only to find out: BROWN OUT.
(talagang niliteral ko dba)

so a day passed of having to get water from our neighbor's pump and another day.
(yup. 3 days. 3 nights. walang kuryente!)

then i realized! saturday, shet! BDAY KO NA! wala paring kuryente! good thing my mom reserved a hotel room ahead, so i was able to do all my preparations there.
(all hotels were fully booked! mahirap ang pilipinas ang pilipino inde!)

but all my songs for my 18 roses and all that were still in my ipod! not yet in a cd! so un. (alam nio ng panay sitti songs lang ung nagplay nung debut ko and instrumental lang ung sa 18 roses, haiz. sayang ung mga nights that i was awake to prepare for the songs.)

although, i gave out 110 invitations and only 70+ people came.
i am still grateful.
for we were not harmed by the typhoon.
and i still had a great time.
(though... basta alam nio na un...)
i hope everyone who came had a great time too.

THANKS GUYS!

thank you

* Friends are gifts from God who lift us to our feet when our wings
have trouble remembering how to fly.

*For the taxes that I pay, because it means that I am employed.

* For the mess to clean after a party, because it means that I have
been surrounded by friends.

* For the clothes that fit a little too snug, because it means I have
enough to eat.

* For my shadow that watches me work, because it means I am out in the
sunshine.

* For a floor that needs mopping, and windows that need cleaning,
because it means I have a home.

* For all the complaining I hear about the government, because it means
that we have freedom of speech.

* For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot,
because it means I am capable of walking and that I have been blessed with
transportation.

* For the pile of laundry and ironing, because it means I have clothes
to wear.

* For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day, because it
means I am capable of working hard.

* For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours, because it
means that I am alive.

*Think positive and act.

FATE. im in educational psychology

Your Learning Style: Expressive and Tenacious

You love to learn about new cultures, ideas, and theories. You Should Study: Anthropology Counseling Education Ethnic Studies Foreign Languages and Literature History Literature Music Philosophy Eastern Religion

What Should You Study?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"Nice doggy."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

You Are a Smiley Face Cookie

You're happy go lucky. So happy, in fact, it's a little past the point of normal sanity. You usually make those around you smile ... when you're not creeping them out!

What Kind of Cookie Are You?

holler.

Four terms down, five more to go. And we are ready, get set, NAH!!! Let’s take a break and rest first. After all the cramming, procrastination, picture taking, bonding, always late, always absent, and just pure laziness. STOP!

Take a deep breath because the ride will is going to be bumpier-er. Get it?!

I should be in a relaxed state. But I’m kind befuddled, confused, and perplexed. Well whatever term you like to use. I’m feeling shit and I don’t know why. I’ve been smoking again. Is there a connection? Well, how the hell will I know?

One thing I’m sure. I want to get my grades, go to the overnight training for the PF. Graduation and presentation in Sign Language class. I think I passed. I got high grades naman. Block outing at Toni’s house, hopefully I arrange that they will be on separate dates. And then start the next term.

And I want to get my feelings straight. I thought I have recognized, accept and have over come the thing that I felt. Now I feel something different, yet its still not good. I’m half-Crazy.

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intoxicated.

haha!

july 14, 2006. friday.

jac and vic's bday.

first. it was jacq's party @ capones, makati.

i "hosted" the party. haha. lucky them! haha!

after the 18 treasures and shots. (countless...)

everyone (i think...) started dancin'... and drinkin...

jacq / jacq's mom (she's so cool). i stil need to confirm who talaga... gave me a rose stuff toy. awww. so sweet. ; )

after i dunno how long... i was drunk...(tons of tequilla!!!) it has been a while...

i was wasted shit. anyway...

what happened after i dunno...

check out the pix... most of them i really don't remember doing...

good thing LOIS, WIN and CHRIS was sober and kind enough to hold my hand... and ask me if i was ok...

DRICH was also kind (ironically ok.) enough to pull someone to dance with me. grsh. i hate you.

GAB was so busy... haha! the others were drunk too!.

oh, by the way, all the gurls were in skirts. except jacq. ironic. hehe.

then... i think by 2-3am, we headed to prince plaza 2. it was VIC's turn. i believe CID picked us up. the others went home.

but we were so drunk we just ate mc nuggets and empanada. teased each other. did a lil card game (reminiscin' our block outing).

and dozed off at around 5... woke up at 8... bought stuff from mini stop...

including cup noodles, bread, spread (rhyme!) and WATER. we loved H2O! BRUNCH TIME!

then we packed up (oh! i played feeding frenzy pa pala and zuma!) and GAB, LOIS, ANGEL and I. went off by 12.

i passed by my dentist. got home by 3, and as if nothing happened.

haha. fun.

silent

my class begun at 6 and ended 730pm.
this will go on every tuesday and thursday for the rest of the term.
today was my first day in my Sign Language class, in College of Saint Benilde.
my prof even though he's deaf was really funny.
i had very cool classmates although most of them were more than 5 years older than i am, we had fun.
i learned how to pray the lasallian prayer, using, well actions. it was tough. but very coool!
hehe!
hearing my prof's laugh and knowing that he can't hear himself made me feel sad, and blessed at the same time. this really touched my heart and made me realize what i wanted to do.
i want to be a teacher. or a psychologist. but i do also want to teach the deaf or be a counselor for them.

when i walked towards the gate, i passed by their "tambayan" and for the first time, i didn't feel weird, but i felt i wanted to learn and understand them.

day TWO!

ok. day two. i was so frustrated yesterday. ( i realized frustrated is a better term than depressed, coz people thought, i was refering to a love life situation, weird right?! i used the word depressed and people kept on asking how was i doing, so now i think this is a better term.)

as you might have read, my dear readers, (hehe!) i had a really not so good day yesterday, and i would like to say, i think today is a better day. actually, there were still good things that happend yesterday, i just forgot to recognize them coz i was so preoccupied with complaining.

by the way, we had aircon in our rooms today, finally, thoug it was still not that cool. i borught with me my trustee "jug" so i wont dehydrate.

i missed my first class, (i failed to make kwento, that our helps are on vacation, so im kinda doing everything around the house, well, a t least for a week.) coz i needed to attend to my dog, andee. she was not feeling good.

so i got to school just in time for my next class, and we even had time to eat a small snack, my class was relstwo. omg! i was glad my teacher is good, coz when i took relsone my prof was as boring as hell. (im sorry for comparing everything that sucks and everything that is extremely good to hell). i also found out that, kristine and shurwin, were with me at the same time. so that makes the four of us, including abby, which is my blockmate, setonians in the room.

the class after that was at yuchengo! i believe its a kilometer away! coz we really felt all sweaty when we got there. my prof in edutec2 was also my prof in edutech, so we didnt need much introduction and went down to business.

my last class for the day was at gokongwei, again a kilometer away from yuchengco. it was a first for us, (abby, eloisa, cza, angeli, jacq and win) to have a class in that building, so weren't used of not having signal inside the classroom. im not bashing! hehe! our prof in this class was also good. very proficient in english too, and we enjoyed all his trivias about Rizal. (that's our subject by the way). for the nth time drich didn't attend class so when we formed groups we didn't include him in ours coz there can only be 7 memebers in a group. but i was so kind to inform the prof and he was placed in a group well full of bob marley looking guys. hehe. ; )

i was happy to finally get home and take a rest, well not really, for i had to prepare dinner, hehe!

**p.s. i dunno why but im kinda gettin addicted in writing what happend to me. but i think this won't last, coz after this week, it will be the real thing. real hectic sked. and all that stuff.

first day. first term. 06-07

night before my first day, the first floor of our house got flooded, because the faucet was left open (or because of the water pressure the faucet broke, anyway). i was the one who went down to check, because we heard water flowing and the moment i stepped down, i slept, so lucky me, my backs hurts until now. so we drained the water til midnight. and i went to bed around two.

here's my sched for the first term 06-07. mon,wed,fri : 10:30 - 11:30 ; 2:30 - 3:30 (yah! i only have two classes) then, tue, thurs : 9:40 - 10:40 ; 11:20 - 12:50 ; 1:00 - 2:30 ; 2:40 - 4:10 (yah! i have four classes with ten minute breaks in between, and yah, it sucks! haha!)

i was excited to finally be in school and "experience our 20 plus floor bldg!" woohoo! the highest educational bldg. in the country! yey!

unfortunately. i had to line up before i could ride one of the 4 working elevators (which 3000 other people was going to ride, juz to get to class). my first ride, luckily, was the one in the middle (where you could see a hell of a view of manila!). when o got off, i didn't like the atmosphere, it was already so hot! and i searched for my room, and headed to chair nearest the window (which as a matter of fact, has a very cool lock system!). the comfort rooms weren't available on that floor so we had to go down the 16th to use a toilet. gosh! it was cooler in the cr than in our classroom.

my prof for the first class didn't show up. so i have to wait till wednesday to find out who he/she is.

so i got on one of the elevators again, this time the one in the left most, where there was no glass window anf you really needed to gasp for air, when i got off, i really felt dizzy and sweaty all over. (eww! i know!)

my next class was 2 hours away so i decided to go back to the real world, that is La Salle-inside the gates.

i met up with my blockmates and decided to have lunch.

after an hour i had nowhere else to go, everyone, who i was with had class, so i went to CCD to work on our bulletin board.

at 1:45, i headed back to the new bldg. which by the way is the "bro. ANDREW gonzales hall" (hehe!) and rode the middle elevator, and went to my las class for the day.

bottom line: mainit sa bagong bldg! good luck kung kelan magkakaaircon dun. at ang layo. un lng.

lastly, i pray that my 4 slightly straight classes will go out fine tom. i gotta bring a water jug! (OO WATER JUG NA ITO!) and a big fan or something that functons wiith batteries (as jacq recommended) and hope that the administratotrs will come up with something to remedy this very disturbing problem. and the the bldg will be finished in a week! wah! goodluck tlga!

PBB

okey. i feel like i'm living in a dorm, its summer and my dad's acting like a really unreasonable land lady, well, sorry for the stereotype but i really feel that way, anyway, since, i can't go out and i have to be in bed by 11pm, i indulge myself with television.

i watched PBB teen edition, haha, my brother have been watching it since it started, so i got interested, hehe, well, as most of you know me, syempre i checked out the cutest guy, haha! and i must say aldred is really a cutie (see images below). anyway, i really got interested of the past happenings so i looked up the website, and i read this really nice song by one of the housmates, kim.

here's the song: (OMG! i can relate big time! well, actually, i really want to say this song to someone.)

Peng You (Friend/s, Kaibigan)
These past few years, being alone (Zhe xie nian yi ge ren)
The wind has passed, the rain has stopped (Fong ye guo yu ye zou)
You have cried (You guo yu ye zou)
I/We still remember what the past was (Hai ji de jian chi shen me)
When you have loved truly, you will get hurt (Zhen ai guo zai hui tong)
It will get sad and lonely (Hui ji mo hui hui shou)
But you will always be in my heart(Zhong youmong zhong you ni zai xin zhong)
Friends will be with you(Peng you yi shen yi qi zou)
These days are no longer here(Na xie re zhi bu zhai you)
One word, one lifetime (one word will last a lifetime) (Yi zu hua yi bei zhi)
A toast to our deep friendship(Yi shen ching yu bei zu)
We all have been lonely(Peng you bu cheng gu tan gou)
You will learn that our friendship will last for a lifetime(Yi shen peng you ni hui dong)
Even if there's sadness and hurt(Hai you shang hai you tong)
You still have me....(Hai yao zou hai you wo)

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take me to siloso beach!!!

okay... im bored... well... honestly sad... i am now struck by the trimestral sched of la salle! hehe!
my friends are all officially in vacation, while i'm still finishin my requirements, damN! anyway!
i juz found out from my flowchart, that i can finish my course in nine terms (meaning: three years), so im left with six terms, yey! but i was kinda thinking of shifting yesterday, coz i suddenly felt a urge to teach, i think it has got to do with the "educate to end poverty" posters in my room. so im really kinda thinking about that. and also, we just celebrated CED day, a.k.a. teacher's day, it was really fun, especially the culminating activity though it was really tiring... anyway, my avatar, is sad, coz im still in school and summer is on, but there is a dog, coz im expecting to have one real soon... so that's it... i gotta go back to reality now, and finish my papers... hehe!

pussies!

a slate built on principles aiming for a just and free society.

Your candidates for the General Elections 2006.
(from left) Anna, Me!, Jielene, Tin, Kathy!

a leader.

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march 6-14. we made our speeches, practiced them, memorize and delivered them to the students.
TRASFORMATIVE LEADERSHIP and CONVERGENCE in EDUCATION. this was our platform, together with Ms. Jielene Sato (college assembly president), Tin Paderes (edge2004 batch rep), Kathy Mercado (edge2004 Legislative assembly represetative), Anna Litonjua (edge2005 legslative assembly represetative, alec, aldrich, toni, anil, chastine, and the other emcs, i ran for Edge 2005 Batch Represetative. i have never ran for any office in the 17 years of my existence, so everything, from the speeches, to the ptpc was new to me. i was always cautious of my actions, there were times that i hesitated but there were definitely times that i never let anything stop me from making the people see what i really wanted to do. i would even cut class, go home at 9 and be at school as early as 7, juz so ill be ready for the day ahead. march 15-17. was judgement day. elections.

march 18, at around 7pm, after all the "awards" and jokes have been said, we all settled down for the results. college of education was first, my batch was first too. then i heard my opponents name, i felt sad of course, there were a few tears... but when i heard that the EB was a sweep, i was definitley happy.

it was only until i got home when it all started to sink in, and i couldn't stop crying, to be perfecftly honest until now... but i don't regret anything, i had offered what i have to offer, i had a wonderful time with the coolest people and i'll forever treasure this experience. i am now going back to my regular life... i'll still have to finish projects for CED day, and i am looking forward to the new leadership next term. Congratulations and Good luck to Simoun, Noey, Melai, Jhoan, Kaysie, Chris, Jielene, Tin and Kathy!

Thank you: Anil, Chastine, Drich, Toni, Alec, Jielene, Tin, Kathy, Anna, my blockmates!, my CEO barkada!, TAPAT!, for believing and never giving up on me. I wish i could have given you victory but i didn't. i do promise though, to continue fighting for a just and free society and for a leadership edge05 truly deserves. ;' )

looking forward to our future projects... ; )

chaos

military...
rallyist...
suspension of classes...
argh! is it coup d'etat?! or juz selfish acts?!
 
whatever people may call it, and whatever way you understand it...
its just chaos, in one word.
february 24, 2006. 
 
declaration: suspension of classes, all levels.
we were supposed to have our SALIKSIK class.
anyway, we decided to go to st. francis square, which i juz realized
was near the EDSA monument, well, this myt be a stupid idea, but nothin
bad really happened, so me and drich went to watch final destination 3,
one of the grossiest movie i've ever seen. ewww.
saturday, non working holiday, i juz stayed at home, by the orders of my parents.
and actually we went to my brother's confirmation at about 3 pm. in las piñas.

i just realized i'm doing a recap of my activities over the weekend, and
readers will find this boring, but its ok... i just wish i could have something to look back to,
since im in my lazy mode so im typing away everything i have in mind<<<>

after the confirmation we went home. sunday. february 26. we went to market market,
at the fort, taguig, okay... pig out. haha! i've never enjoyed so low cost food in my life.
well okay im exagerating, but it was really fun. and im happy with my new pair of shoes. hehe.
oh my, then when we arrived home, some news broke out that the marines did something at the fort, oh my. we were just around that are an hour ago, and if we didnt leave we would have been of all these commotion, anyway, at least we can breathe that we were not there, it juz struck me that, if i was there at that moment, something could have happen to me and i couldnt call my friends to say goodbye because my fone was out of credits... ok... ok... stupid... but what if ryt?!
hehe...
so many things...

CED DAY got posponed. so i'm really hoping all these things will finally come to an end so we can go on with our lives. my gosh, the other 2/3 of the country is happy doing their work, while here in Manila (well, including Cavite), we can't stop worrying what will happen next.

i juz pray that all of these will end peacefully and the people be united for the sake of the greater good and for OUR COUNTRY.

read the cake!

CEO 1st anniversary!

i have never taken so many perfect pictures in my life!
haha! well, it's just an ordinary day! but made extraordinary
by the person's i love the most! the CEOs! vaggs and penns!
hahaha! i'll choose them anytime for the world!
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teambuilding pictures!

CHAI and ME!

athletes are creative as well!

quarters namen!!!

athletes are good dancers too!

they are good actors too!

my tralala... my dingdingdong...

February 4 to 5, 2006. Villa Feliciana Silang, Cavite.

33 atheletes. a coach. 2 peer facilitators. 2 counselors.
home cooked meals. self service. fun exercises and games.
"initiation". naked people. buffed bodies. crazy performances.
non stop teasing. non stop pushing to the pool.
freezin water. stomach aches. laugh trips.
new friends. first impressions. wrong ideas. crazy ideas.
team building. shi ba shi. "kinacareer" ang lahat.
cool coach. nice people. weird people.
kikay moments. picture moments.
crazy sounds!!!

this weekend was a blast! haha!
this is my first time I co-facilitated and it was crazy.
the track and field team is a bunch of kids in adlut skin. haha!
they are so fun to watch.
this seminar is their preparation for the coming UAAP games.
I do wish them good luck. It's nice to know that La Salle are represented
by really disciplined and goal oriented people.
I understand their griefs. and I am relaly proud of them.
it is a pleasure to meet this team.
even though evryone comes from different walks of life,
you will really feel that they stand up for each other.
I do hope they are not the only team that does that.
and Im looking forward to the next team building seminar with them.

*note: this is the first time i capitalized the letter "i".

horoscopes...

ok ok... their lame... but lately...
its been a thing for me to check my horoscope
for the day before i get to sleep...
its interesting... coz most are totally true...
juz wanna share...

an artwork of me and aldrich... its really cool with what photo editing can do!

cza, me, abby and eloisa! the fantastic four! we don't know why, but our outfits most of the time, has its common "theme" hehe!

thrid term na!

oh my! i felt like someone pressed the fast forward button!
after this term i am no longer a frosh...
i am no longer the "novice" of the group...
i am no longer part of the "youngest" group...
well... not that all of these matters...
i am happy to know that in my first year i have been productive...
i have joined seminars and organizations
that i truly enjoyed and still is enjoying...
i am doing my best to get back on the dean's list...
shocks! the second term really taught me that a few points does count, big time!

and i am looking forward to a more productive term and school year!
if there's one thing i miss now is my CEO friends...
its really tough, having different schools, different schedules...
but now that we are looking forward to our anniversary! ONE YEAR GUYZ!
as a formal CEO group... (oh my! i should write something about that! ill do that soon promise!)
going back, now that we are looking orward to that i hope we could come up with a really nice way of celebrating it... not really fancy... but just fun and exciting... well, one thing i can say about my barkada, you can take us anywhere and we'll still have fun! hehe!

okay... back to reality... i have been doing a lot of sleeping lately, haha! making up for the 2 days that i didn't sleep... because of, yah! you guessed it school work... anyway... everything pays off in the end... so it's ok... i just hope... just like before... i survive this term... and still have enough braincells for the 7 terms left in la salle. haha!